Breaking Down to Stay Alive

I remember hearing Dr. James Dobson say many years ago that Satan’s number one attack on our nation is the breakdown of the family.

Maybe I didn’t believe it then. Maybe I was “in love,” without kids, and thinking the “breakdown of the family” was a far-fetched idea for my perfect ideals.

But a mere 15 years into being a wife, and I believe Dr. Dobson was right.

It’s hard to stay committed in marriage. It’s hard because I’m a sinner. And Jeremy’s a sinner. And Heaven help us, we have birthed little sinners.

And I’d really like things to be calm around here. I’d like to weigh what I did on our wedding day. I’d like to feel loved like I was 18. And blissfully oblivious like I just birthed our first kid.

But so is life. And so is Satan. And his rampage goes on and on.

And we keep fighting.

Not because we want to win, but because we can’t lose. Lives are at stake. Futures hang in the balance.

And the cross tells me grace is the only way to win. Love is worth dying for.

“But God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” (Romans 5:8)

Didn’t we just celebrate Easter?

He is making all things new but only after we’re willing to die. He stretched out His arms so I can open mine. And He embraces me so I can embrace.

Yes…We stay alive in marriage and family and friendship…by breaking down.



Not in a million years…but for grace…

I married a Pastor…in Alamance County. Who would have thought?

Jeremy laughs and says, “The prodigal has come home.” It’s true. I can hardly believe it myself.

People here knew me. They knew the elementary me and the high school me (God forbid!). They knew the me before God wrecked me in college. Before grace became more than a word. Before the Gospel “made all things new.”

I giggle at the thought of it. Feel a little shame at the same time. God is just so unpredictable.

But He’s also so faithful. And He changes lives. And gives second chances. And lets the prodigal come home because His Son came here. And grace has changed me. Keeps changing me. I can’t get over how my Abba Father has loved and rewritten. And how He keeps making messy things beautiful.

That’s why our family is here. That’s the message the Gospel begs us to share. That’s why the Summit Church has planted this campus in Alamance County.

Easter is Sunday. And I’m shamelessly inviting ya’ll to our campus. Begging you maybe. Because God’s love and grace has wrecked my life. In beautiful ways. And we are so desperate for you to experience Him too.

No judgment. No condemnation. As you are…

Here’s our campus info.

We are so, so thankful to be here!

” Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. All this is from God, who through Christ reconciled us to himself and gave us the ministry of reconciliation.” (II Corinthians 5:17,18)


Yep, in the glasses. You’re welcome!!=)


Oh, high school…