My new phrase to Jeremy-“We are always at capacity.” No matter what season of life I’ve always thought I was at capacity; living a whirlwind pace and never quite being in control.
Married without kids-Busy with student ministry
Married with 1 kid-Busy with that kid (and redefining my identity)
Married with 2 kids-Busy with those little guys
Married with 3 kids-Busy figuring out how this all work (and praying desperately for the adoption)
Married with 4 kids-Busy embracing today (and waiting on #5).
And every season…I felt at capacity. Just the other day Jeremy and I went on a date. Why? We only had Esther. When did 1 kid become a date night? That used to be my capacity.
I believe God gives grace for every season. He gives grace for every child He blesses you with. He gives grace for every year full of job changes and moves and death…and all the things that push us to “capacity.” He doesn’t leave us only. He’s constantly giving grace; no matter my level of capacity. No matter if I “can’t take anymore.”
So now I say to Jeremy “We are always at capacity,” and he knows what I mean.
I may feel maxed out. This moment may feel like pure craziness. But God is never at capacity. He is always offering grace. I can breathe and embrace now…right now…as straight from His hand.
“The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.” (Lamentations 3:22,23)