“Oops, All Berries”

Have you tried them yet? “Oops, All Berries.” Full of sugar and sugar and sugar. And last night I had two bowls of them! Why? Frustration…

Yep, here’s another adoption post where I let out the uglies. Did I ever assume this adoption was for the light-hearted? No. Did I assess my patience level much higher than it is? Yes.

Last night I checked the online list of NC Bethany families waiting to adopt. Last week there were…count it…16 of us waiting…wondering…obsessively checking our cell phones. We were 1 in 16 waiting families.

Last night the number…12. What? 4 families got placements recently. 4 families got THAT phone call. 4 families are holding their sweet babies. 4 families got picked over US!

And there we sit, middle of the list, with our humongo family squeezed into a little square picture. The only family on there with more than 1 kid.

Do birthmoms look at our profile and think we’re insane? Do they see that mild look of crazy in my eyes that sometimes wonders if I can even handle another?

This isn’t a contest. The spiritual me rejoices in God’s miracle working hand, and I’m reminded that I serve the same God.

But the flesh side of me…it’s pretty ugly. I get all worked up. I eat 2 bowls of cereal. I give up on the whole thing.

Then I read these words I recently wrote on a prayer card…

“And now, O Lord, for what do I wait? My hope is in You.” (Psalm 39:7)

My hope is in Him. I’m not waiting to be picked. I’m not waiting for a phone call. I’m watching for my faithful God to move. My hope is in Him.

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6 comments

  1. Yes He has a plan and no it is not always in our time frame. Love you Tiff and praying your child comes home soon.

  2. Tiff,
    AMEN!!
    We attend church with Chad & Dawn. Chad sent me your blog post this morning knowing I would appreciate it! We are adopting a brother & sister from Africa & have been WAITING……to bring them home!! They were supposed to come home in March before changes in procedure. It’s nice to find “adoption family” who feel your pain & even better, those who are believers and can help maintain proper focus-that being God’s glory!!
    Christina

    1. Thanks Christina! Love finding fellow sojourners on this ridiculous path! I’ll be praying for you all during this time. Yay Africa!! We have so many friends who have adopted from there. It’s gonna happen, friend!! Praying for patience!

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