I’m sitting down to type this after eating Halloween candy for lunch. Bless. Since my last post about pulling away, I’ve had several people stop and ask me for clarification. To each one I had no answer. I just knew God was calling me to step away. To give a little more space during this busy time.
I expected God to put His finger on the usual: Facebook, Blogging, Certain foods. That’s how it worked before Esther came. But this time the decision to pull away came before the clarification. So I waited. Kept eating candy. Kept checking Facebook. Kept thinking about this blog. And kept reading the “One Thousand Gifts devotional” which I referenced last week.
Here’s what I recently read:
Devotion 9-“What if instead of discounting the current moment, the uncontrollable, the simply given-what if I counted it- and on the God who controls it all? What if all our running around is only our trying to run away from God-the great I AM, present in the present moment?”
Devotion 10-“Calm. Haste makes waste. Life is not an emergency. Life is brief and it is fleeting, but it is not an emergency.”
And verses like these:
Psalm 131:2-“Surely I have composed and quieted my soul; Like a weaned child against his mother, my soul is like a weaned child within me.”
I Corinthians 7:29,31-“What I mean, brothers and sisters, is that the time is short…For this world in its present form is passing away.”
Not to mention I’ve been plodding through Karen Ehman’s “Let It Go: How to Stop Running the Show and Start Walking in Faith” for months now.
I’m a realist who understands there are tons of things to get done every day and tons more that get pushed on til tomorrow. I’m the one who didn’t have time to fix lunch for myself today and instead ate candy after candy after candy.
But I’m equally confident that God is telling me to pull away from the unnecessary right now. (That word itself is so vague and changes from person to person. I’m sure my list would look way different than yours.)
Bottom line-I want my soul to be quiet, resting in Him during the next couple months. I want the boys to see Mom worship while working to get things packed. I want to experience Him in more intimate ways.
So I’m making lists and crossing things off. Not things I’ve done but things I’m just not gonna do. Things I will be brave enough to say no to when “people pleasing me” would rather say yes. And pray for wisdom to know what those things are.
Let’s run hard after Him by stilling ourselves in His love. By resting in the peace the cross offers. He really will prove to be enough.
And these are some of my “NECESSARIES”:
She always smiles like this after finishing her bottle.
Yes homemade yeast rolls!
Bedtime reading with Daddy
Roaming the woods with their friend.